I hinted at it in my post on airline travel.
Mostly, however, these posts have been carefully skirting the issue.
But [deep breath] I have to be honest with you. I can talk Stillness all month long, but my dark secret is this:
[eyes wander towards the ceiling]
Ok. I am
Seriously? Is that all? I hear you eye-rollers mutter out there. So what? I'm in love with my iPhone too! IOS 5 holla!
Well. So then the party gets crashed by this guy writing about Henry Thoreau and Walden. (Another holla! to my friend Don for the link.) Sam Graham-Felson writes about life with an iPhone - no, not just life, but full-time existence with an iPhone. The first thing we check in the morning, the last thing we check at night. Sigh. I *really* wanted not to recognize myself in his descriptions.
I was slow to hop on the iPhone train, but let's just say the learning curve wasn't a burden. I love the email, the Facebook, the Pinterest, the all-of-it. I love having something to whip out for the kids in a doctors office so that I can get my Achilles' palpated in peace.
But. But. To co-opt Mr Graham-Felson's phrase - the iPhone is making my life easier, not better.
When examining one's life through the lens of Stillness, it is hard to make the case for a 62x/day Facebook check. It is dicey at best to suggest that it is important to pin 16 images of Stillness to a Pinterest board in order to find Still in my day.
In our little Stillness experiment I've done a some examination of my phone habit. I've consciously left my phone on Silent in the evenings when I'm hanging with my husband. When I play with the kids outside, I leave the phone in the kitchen.
I'm not quitting my phone. Honestly? It had me at the Hello apple. But I will question the need to hold it in my palm at the bus stop. I will stop myself before I sneakily check it during bedtime songs & stories.
This evening I do apologize that I don't have a photo for you, of Ms 3 in a snowman sweater, red velvet plaid skirt, pink & black argyle tights and green frog boots. It was classic. But here's the thing: I was busy playing TV Tag with that funny little girl. Busy keeping them in hysterics with names of early-80s tv shows and getting smoked by my 7 year old.
Today, my life kicked my phone's ass.