When I started this 31 Days project, I promised myself I wouldn't beat myself up. Wouldn't give myself a load of guilt-laden grief over short posts, over half-baked ideas, or posts without cool photos.
Lucky I promised that, because I did indeed serve up a fair few of those kind of posts. And yes, I did just plain fail to post for the last few days of the month. [Ed note: To be fair, I tried. Zipped tight into my mummy sleeping bag, cabin camping in a freezing rainstorm, I tried tapping out a post from my iPhone. Stupid Blogger lost it THREE TIMES. More on Stupid Blogger tomorrow.]
There were a few good ones in there too, posts that made me very happy to write. This one, on parenting, was one of my favorites. Funnily enough (some would argue for synchronicity here) this post, a sort of companion piece to my favorite, was far & away the most-read piece, with more than four times the number of page views of any of the other Stillness posts.
It seems that finding stillness whilst parenting is a giant challenge to all of us, and all we can do is be grateful for the moments when we find both the joy and the Still at the same time. That - that - is the magic of raising kids.
But this post too was a big hit with y'all - a post considering what to do when the smog of life settles right into your brain and you can't clear it. I talked about just going out and clearing a tiny corner of your world -ordering, and stilling, a small space for you. Baby steps, folks, is all I'm asking. Even those tiny steps will inch you closer and closer to places where you find Stillness more often, and more easily.
Here is the BIG QUESTION, though, the one that's been niggling at me all along each of these 31 Days. With all this Stillness, what happens to moving forward? To planning ahead?
I'm worried that it's easy to claim you are searching for Stillness when actually you are hiding from things. Pretending to live in the zen moment when in fact you are just burying your head in the sand about the bills piling up on the desk next to you.
So here is where my Big Idea gets its moment in the sun:
|courtesy of Pinterest|
But yes, there must be some letting go as well. Some willingness to look forward, instead of just in The Moment, if only to make consciously living a life of peace possible, instead of lurching from one crisis to the next. (Not that I know anyone who lives like that.)
Tomorrow, TOMORROW: I want you to come back & visit here, because I've got some Big Ol' News, and I can't wait to share it with you. Big News about what I've decided to do after this 31 Days, and where I'm going to do it.